2 Aug 2011

30.07.2011 - XII 'C', St.Joseph Convent HSS

                        It was a Saturday morning.  My watch was showing 9.15 am. I was rushing to St. Joseph Convent HSS  with a small wish deep in my heart, "How good it will be if i write this TNPSC exam in XII C, my class!!!"  It was after about 6 years, I was going back to my school.  Not with the school bag, but with a hall ticket & a very sweet feeling remembering my old days.  I entered the gate.
                        I saw a small crowd around a tree.  I thought, It is where the notice board will be. I was right. I was searching my number in the notice board.  My number was clearly printed, & I sensed I am the last number in Room No:6.  My dad, showed me my class XII C and told me, "Look, that is room No:6"  I couldn't believe. My heart was filled with school memories.  While climbing the stairs, I remembered the Assembly every morning. With Joy, I entered my class.
                         I saw the same Cross, Jesus hanging on it.  I thought of telling, "No more Jesus is there, He is with u & me. Yes! HE IS ALIVE"  But to whom shall i say in an exam hall???? The same black board, the same benches, the same varenda, where we used to sit and study. Specially i remembered Kamalasini. She used to scold me, teach me & make fun of me.  She was the outstanding of our class. we used to share our lunch. The fishes we shared, samosa we ate, the funs we had.. ha ha haaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. really lovely days..
                         I remembered Figi.. she admires me, my talk alot. she was studying in my next class... Then, the12 stars - sometimes enjoying, sometimes fights. PISSSAV group - haha.. funny G.P.  Then Meenakshi, I gifted her the Bible.  I don know what she will be doing with that LIVING WORD today.  I remembered many others too.  Finally Benzil Regi & Keerthi.  I hope their souls will rest in peace.  I did not share Gospel to them.  But... I have a big question..  I am bad, i have time. I have friends. I have cousins. my family. I care them. what is the use of such care?? I am acting.. I am loving them with no action.. Lord... Please help me to do your will. USE ME PLEASE........ make me AVAILABLE for u Lord.. plsssssssssss.
                         I finished my exam 10 mins earlier.  I wrote "JESUS CARES YOU" on the desk & left my class room. It may be silly to write on the desk, but God may use it to touch a soul.  All my hope is in you Lord.

27 Jul 2011

Who am I???

Who am I? Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wondering heart.
Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again
Who am I?
That the voice that calm the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me. 

Not because of who I am. 
But because what of youve done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are. 

Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cuz I am yours.
I am yours. 

15 Jun 2011


Had Good time with Jerwin & Mano... We went to kaalikaesam with suther mama's family... & It was really a blessed day for me. I heard my father pray. I felt so happy. Thank u Jerks & Mano.. God Bless you two :):):) Above all.. Thank you Lord for protecting us..... 

6 Jun 2011

A Love Letter.....

Berritta.... I love you! I shed my own blood for you to make you clean.
You are clean now, so believe that it is true.
You are lovely in my eyes, and I created you to be just as you are.
Do not criticize yourself or get down for not being perfect in your own eyes.
This leads only to frustration. I want you to trust Me - one step
one day at a time. Dwell in My power and in My love and be free!
Be yourself! Don't allow other people to run you.
I will guide you, if you let Me. Be aware of My presence in everything.
I give you patience, love, joy, peace and life. Look to Me for your answers.
I am your shepherd and will lead you. Follow me only! Do not ever forget this.
Listen to Me and I will tell you My will.
Let My love flow from you and spill over to all you touch.
Do not be concerned with yourself. You are My responsibility. I will change you,
and you will hardly know it is happening. You are to
love yourself and love others simply because I love you.
Take your eyes off yourself! Look only at Me!
I change...I create..., but not when you are trying. I won't fight your efforts.
You are Mine. Let Me give you joy, peace, and kindness. No one else can!


27 May 2011


     I'm missing my akka, arun anna & annan alot right now.. I need them now... I need them near me... Lord.... Bind us together... Bind us together with love....

20 May 2011

It Really Pricks me......

How long has it been since you talked with the Lord
And told him your heart's hid in secrets
How long since you prayed how long since you stayed
On your knees till the light shone through
How long has it been since your mind felt at ease
How long since your heart knew no burden
Can you call him your friend how long has it been since you knew that he cared for you
How long has it been since you knelt by and then prayed to the Lord up in heaven
How long since you knew that he'd answer you
And would keep you the long night through
How long has it been since you woke with the dawn and felt this day is worth living
Can you call him your friend how long has it been since you knew that he cared for you...

14 May 2011

Just a Little Talk with Jesus

I once was lost in sin, but Jesus took me in,
And then a little light from heaven filled my soul
It bathed my heart in love & write my name above
And just a little talk with Jesus made me whole.

Sometimes my path seems drear, without a ray of cheer
And then a cloud of doubt may hide the light of day
The mists of sin may rise and hide the starry skies
But just a little talk with Jesus clears the way.

I may have doubts & fears, my eyes filled with tears
But Jesus is a friend who watches day & night
I go to Him in prayer, He knows my every care,
And just a little talk with Jesus makes it right.

Now let us have a little talk with Jesus
Let us, tell Him all about our troubles
He will, hear our faintest cry
And He will answer by & by;
Now when you feel a little prayer wheel turning
And you know a little fire is burning
You will find a little talk with Jesus makes it right. It makes it right..

13 May 2011

My Friend....

Sangeetha..... I call her Sangee... She is my dear dear dear friend.... We are friends for more than 13 years.. She knows me well... We share everything..... With a quiet smile, she always listens me.. I talk more.. she listens more.. She is precious in my life... If anyone ask who is your friend, i always remember this precious girl.... I have a lot & lot of friends... But, Sangee is more than a friend.. She prays for me.. She loves me... She cares me... She used to message me daily.. But, me... ?????? waste...
                           Sangee remembers everyones birthday.... She never fails to wish them on their celebration day... Even, she remembers my mom's.....  Love u Sangee...  I love all her mom's preparations... I have never eaten such tasty dishes... Sangee uses her creativity & creates special gifts for me.. Really those my are precious gifts... She is God fearing & God loving.. She cares, loves & prays for her family, her friends & her friend's friends...... Such a nice girl.. She will be overjoyed when i share my simple joy... I really admire this girl... Thank you Lord, for such a good friend.. Love you & Miss you honey!
                           Only 15 mins more.... She is going to celebrate her birthday [May 14].. he he heee... God Bless you honey!! May this new year be filled with lots & lots of joy & blessings... May the Good Shepherd, guide you & use you.. Happy Birthday da!!

7 May 2011

My Annan...

My Annan... I thank God, for such a annan, who is there to fight with me, care me, scold me, teach me, guide me & love me... When i was very little, he used to tell me stories every night, before sleep.  We used to have lot more fun, kidding my akka, finally making that smiling beauty cry... Me & my annan used to play wrestling once upon a time.  This funny game usually ends with my cry.  Within 5 to 10 mins, he'l be back near me, to make my cry, a laugh.. He is very loving & affectionate.. He is always dependent, like a child.  If he is at home, he used to call me 1000 times 'Anne, Anne, Anne...' Everything for dappa reasons.. to switch on the fan, to bring water, blah blah blah...... But, even if i get irritated, i smiles... cos i admire it & love it... For all his simple works, he calls me... My annan, has lot of fans... He is "Premlin Sir".. Weekdays, he will be very busy with his work.. Even if he speaks, he gives 'one word answers' to all questions.. But, Weekends, he speaks well.. Nice to have such a simple, smart, funny, loving & sweet annan... God Bless! Miss you annan!
                    I feel great to have such a good appa, amma, amamma, akka, arun annan & annan... God is always good to me.  He gifted me everything good.  I thank God, for He is above all of us :) :) 

6 May 2011

My Akka & Arun anna..

       My dear Akka & Arun anna... A perfect match. Made for each other.  The very first thing that strikes my mind when i think of my akka is her smile & laugh... In a day, she will show her teeth for 15 hrs & 1 hr she eats & 8 hrs she sleeps.. She does naughty things & smiles like a child, which is the most admirable in her.. She is very talented, smart, creative, intelligent & cute.  I contrast her.  She never fails to care us.  She is really a loving chweeet akka...
       My Arun anna... Ah?????? what can i say? I have never seen such a character.. He is God's beautiful vessel.  He never speaks unnecessarily.  He loves my naughty childish sister, alot.  Whenever i scold my sister for damn reason, my arun anna will be against me.  He silently cares us.
       I always admire this couple.  They lead a God centered life.  Thanking God for your family. God Bless! Miss u two!!!!! 

5 May 2011

My Sweet Family...

             God, the Head of our family. Taking care of us. Loving us. Protecting us. Providing all our needs. Guiding us minute by minute, hour by hour & day by day. And always with us. Wow!! He changes His responsibilities according to us. When we do sin, He punishes... like a father. When we repent, he is our comforter, showing His mercy & love which is like a mother's... Oops.. above mother's.  He is our strength, our joy, our peace, our happiness & our all.. He is above all.  Thank you Lord.
              Then, My Chweet Dad & Mom... A lovely couple.  We usually have lot more fun when they kid each other. My dad, really innocent.. Always in a hurry. finally, we became punctual. I can remember him, caring us when we feel sick. Only those times he calls us 'Makkalae'.  He beats us, when we are wrong.  It is because of  that we are grown good.  My mom, always praying for us.. I can feel my mom building our family, by God's grace. My mom cooks well.  My mom sacrifice her small small wishes for us.  I cant hide anything from my mom.  From my face reactions, no no.. looking at my eyes, she understands me.  My dad & mom cares us in their own way, which i misunderstood during my school days. Now, i know they're precious gifts from God's hand. Lord.. Thank you such a great dad & mom.. Love you mummy & daddy.
               My lovely Amamma...  She was taking care of me for years, right from birth.  She loves all her grand children, but i'm little special for her.  She tells everything to me.  Her prayers, her joy, her sorrows, her wishes, her desires.... Our small small gifts for her, gets special places at her home.  I can see, even today, a dried bouquet at her home, which i gifted her a very long back(more than a year).  She looks unto the Lord for everything.  She loves us in her own way.  I have to thank God for our amamma.  She is a blessing for us. God Bless you amamma..
                It's 11.30 PM. Gonna pray & sleep. Will continue.....

4 May 2011

About My God, My Father, My Friend.....

                My Lord, knit me together in my mother's womb.  I praise God, for i was wonderfully made.  He gifted me a good family.  He gave me everything well & good.  Since, everything was good, i forgot my Saviour & His love, and started walking with the world.  I went a very long way, away from Him.  Finally, came a dead end to my worldly life.  I started searching for the one, who can show me the way & give me life.  I cried out. Heard a voice saying "I am the Way, the Truth & the Life." I surrendered myself. Jesus started walking with me, holding my hands along my life way.  Still He is walking with me & working on me.  Nothing is greater than His love.  He loved me & loves me, as i am... Everyday, I'm enjoying & tasting His Love.  He is my good shepherd, my father, my love, my best friend & my all..... He is mine & I am His... Love you appa

3 May 2011

A Warm Welcome!!!

Greetings Everyone.. wow!!! My first post... Decided to create a blog a very long back.. Finally, i started scribbling today.. Let me see, how far i will continue blogging....